Nostalgia
Its been just 2 days since I returned back from India. It wasnt a very long trip but a heart-warming one. It came after 2 years which seemed much shorter than the last 3 weeks that I spent in India. And as I drove to work today I felt my heart sink, made me feel as if something is missing in my life. All through the drive I wondered what caused this feeling. Do I miss my parents back home? not really..I came over that part 6 years back when I set sail to do my graduate studies. Do I miss my friends...I couldnt really as most of them are in the US. So what is causing this feeling? I have gone to India about 3 times before and I have never really felt this way. I feel its the energy that is missing. When I was in India I felt this energy everywhere. Agreed it was chaotic and agonizing at times but there was always a surge of life force...that liveliness which comes out of sheer profusion of diversity .... so many people...so many different customs...so much of color. The world knows of the US as a melting pot of nationalities and cultures but I experienced India as a boiling pot of life ..with all the extra 'tadka' of chaos. In one of the many enchanting talks that my Guru gave, He said something along these lines "Wherever there is love there is longing. Longing is the sign of eternal love. If Krishna is Love than Radha is Longing". I always wondered what that meant...today I experienced it first hand. Oh India this silent gopa longs for you.